Twelve years ago I learnt what it was like to be a mother. I was pregnant with my eldest child, a boy and I was so excited to see him for the first time. I couldn’t wait for the day he would be in my arms and I was exhilarated at the idea of being a mom. I was exactly eight months pregnant.
In the first trimester of my pregnancy, I had felt nausea and tired all the time. It comes with the blessings of being a mom, but it can be quite exhausting. But I knew in my heart that it would be the greatest gift ever! How right I was! I also had a gut feeling that the baby growing inside me was a boy. In fact, I always wanted my first-born to be a boy! The day the doctor showed me the scan of his sex really changed my perspective of things. I had a living child – a boy – growing inside of me. Two human hearts, a tiny little one and my own, beating at their own rhythm, and binding together in such a wonderous way. How amazing it is, to carry this tiny human being and having the power to be so close to it.
Really, being a mother is so much more if you think about it. The very first time we take the pregnancy test and the result is positive, it doesn’t actually sink in. I mean, yes we are overwhelmed with excitement – I’m going to be a mom! But it’s not until the scan where you see your tiny bean-like baby, and when you find out if it’s a boy or a girl, that you actually realize how different your life will be from that point on.
It’s watching your belly grow, singing songs and lullabies, listening to your baby’s heartbeat when you go for a check-up, and all the amazing things you go through, that makes the moment of your child’s birth ever so exciting!
Don’t get me wrong, there is a bad side to it, like all the blood tests I had to do and that sweet juice I had to drink to find out if I had gestational diabetes. And because I had the toxoplasmosis positive confirmation in my first blood analysis, I had to wash all fruit and vegetables really well, and I couldn’t eat my favourite meal: seafood!
But all of this was for a pretty good cause – the ability to see my child born with no health problems whatsoever. A perfect little human being, with a healthy little body.
The day he was born was almost legendary, and yet so real! Upto this day I still remember everything that happened, from the very beginning when I went to the hospital to meet up with my doctor, to when my baby boy was finally born.
When I arrived at the hospital, the doctor made a quick test to see how the baby was, and realized that I was losing amniotic fluid. “Your baby is going to be born today”, he said. And those words stuck to me. I’m meeting my little piece of heaven today! I could hardly contain myself but I was so excited! They had to induce childbirth at noon but it took a very long time (the whole day) for the cervix to dialate. I mean a LONG time! But lo and behold, after the wait and when I was finally given epidural to take away the pain, the doctor came and told me that my little baby had to be delivered through C-Section. It actually saddened me, because I really wanted a natural delivery, but I must admit, it was better than I expected.
Finally, after midnight, at 12:30, my first child was born. He was the most beautiful and amazing little being I had ever seen! So perfect in every way – his tiny little head with a gorgeous face (I can see him now as I write this), his tiny hands and feet and everything about him was just so PERFECT!
His apgar results were excellent and I was absolutely in love with this little being that had just been born to me! I loved this very soul even before I saw him, but I loved him even more now that he was in my arms.